Let's Dance-Hawk Nelson
They teach us how to talk, they'll teach us how to walk
They'll teach us how to dance just like this
They'll teach us how to dress in nothin' but the best
It's all about success
Why do we fill our heads
With these things that all make no sense
We're no different from the rest
We're all just tryin' to shake this mess
My personality is altered far too easily. Simply the people I hang out with can change the way I think, the vocabulary I use, even my subconscious gestures and body language. I need to remember who I am, and not let my identity be altered and morphed to please whoever I'm with. Especially now. . . everyone seems depressed and I feel like I'm no longer very good at cheering people up. If I let their depression get to me, I won't be able to help them either. I'm proud of myself though, so far I'm holding up.
Today was. . . today. I had some really good Starbucks today. I was falling asleep in freaking Driver's Ed today, so I broke my caffeine rule and treated myself. Tomorrow should be my last day.
PowerHouse was really fun today. We just kicked back & talked, goofing around. I met Shyana's friend, Terry, from Diamond Bar. Cute kid, pretty funny but way too shy. Shy had introduced him to me on the phone & he was fine, but in person--way too shy.
For me, there was this really cute white guy. Good personality, nice smile, MY AGE. The works. Too bad he lives in Oregon. Distance always gets me. :( I got his messenger though, just in case he comes back to California. ;) I should have gone for the phone number, but that could have gotten a bit awkward with so many people there, including my mother. Hah.
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haha, today was...today.
ReplyDeletei love that. =P
about the whole influence thing, i kinda do that too.
but i don't think its altering yourself or your personality so much as relating to the people you're hanging out with. its something that happens to make you seem more relatable to the person(s) you're talking to.
i would see it as a good thing. besides, no one acts the exact same around everyone. you act a certain way w/ certain people based on the event and history you share. it varies between friends and groups and such.
but underneath all of that you're still you. you haven't changed your values, beliefs, or morals when you change friends, rt?
just your mannerisms....
and thats all they are right? just mannerisms....not your personality.
no worries girl. =) you're normal.
& don't worry about cheering everyone up. even you're allowed to have your off days where you just need someone else to cheer you up. plus ya'll just got over that sophomore slump thing....it'll get better once the different situations lighten up a bit and return to normal.
=)
-ambyr